you all know that Aleena and I have been going out for a while, well she is in california(utah) right now and i am flyng out on the 25th and coming back on the 3rd of april. well here is the bad news. upon our return to prattville, she will be packing up her things and moving back to cali. what about Jeremiah you ask? well he is staying in alabama while she moves away. yeah thats right she is leaving me to move to clai which in turn is making me sadder and more sad. the only reason that she gave me for wanting to move back is that she hates alabama and very much likes it in cali. so yeah life continues to get suckier for me. i am so tired of being treated like this, yeah some of it is my fault but for someone who told me that they loved me to all of a sudden decide to move away hurts, it hurts real bad. i have come to the realization that my friends are all i got in this world but even they are moving ahead in their life and leaving me behind. i am so tired of going from being real happy to being depressed to no end. it is killing me inside to know that there is nothing i can do to stop it and it is just to much to cope with. i fear i am breaking down, i feel it coming and i just need a way to either vent or something replace this feeling i have. i am just so sick of thinking that i am actually happy but in actuality my happiness is just a figment of my imagination.
you finally got your post from me Robin.
March 16th, 2006 at 7:39 AM
man everybody goes through that point.
and relationships..gah..at least if she does leave she’s leaving on good terms. that may not sound like much of anything, but take it from one who has loved and lost, thats better than the alternative.
life is only what you make it. if you feel like you are being left behind, then you need to do something about it. nothing is going to magically pop up if you arent willing to make anything happen.
March 16th, 2006 at 1:27 PM
Whoa whoa, Hailevb, I coulda sworn I read something by you…something…recent… that may have said the opposite?
But Jere, she has a point. Make it happen, man. Shit, if Bill can get off his bum and join the air force, then I’m pretty sure we’re all capable of just about anything. Cheer up, soldier, you got a little while longer with me.
March 16th, 2006 at 1:28 PM
the opposite of what?
March 16th, 2006 at 5:08 PM
heres the thing…true love only happens once, actually it usually doesnt happen at all. so, if it’s TRUE, and you let it walk away, youll dwell on the agony forever. I imagine she is your first serious girlfriend, so infatuation probably came easy. I was obsessed with my first serious girlfriend, sarah heyer. after all was said and done, i can see that i did not love her (and i never told her that anyway, but i thought i did). i was so desperate for a serious and lasting relationship that all the stupid things flew under my radar. in the haze of infatuation, youll do anything to convince yourself that this is the one for you, and you ignore anything that says otherwise. what im saying is, you gotta be sure. take it from a guy thats been through a couple different serious relationships. if its love, there wont be a doubt in your mind. heres a couple things you can ask yourself .
1- if you took away the possibility of sex, or any kind of sexual pleasure, would you still feel 100% as enthralled with her?
2- are you 100% sure she feels the same as you?
3-do you love her so much you would put her needs ahead of your own, so much that you would even suffer for her?
if you answered yes honestly to these questions, then you cant afford to let it slip through your hands. and you might be wondering how she can do this to you if she really loves you. forget it. girls are fucking strange, all of em, especially hailey. but i can say that everyone ive met thats not from around here hates this place about the same. more than people who have lived here their whole lives. i moved away from brittney and you gujys for a year, biggest mistake of my life. shed see it was a mistake too if she really loves you. so go with her.
(of course you may want to sit her down and discuss things…see if their is a mutuality.)
March 16th, 2006 at 7:54 PM
“nothing is going to magically pop up if you arent willing to make anything happen. “
March 17th, 2006 at 2:23 AM
Poor Jer.
March 17th, 2006 at 11:00 AM
ESPECIALLY Hailey.
March 17th, 2006 at 12:42 PM
1.thank you thank you for all the kind words. i know i am fucking strange. i revel in it.
2.robin-i was momentarily frusterated with not making things happen because i am the most impatient person in the world. funny-that whole post (which you read but didnt comment on-go figure) was something that was a result of the ex that i was referring to when i gave my first comment on here
..running in circles via the internet..
March 17th, 2006 at 3:36 PM
i don’t think jeremiah’s monetary value has anything to do with his current sit-che-ation , STEVUHN
March 17th, 2006 at 7:19 PM
im a bitch