This was originally going to be a comment on hailey’s latest post but it turned out to be so long that I made it a post….Hailey, I know how u feel most of the time. I feel the same about a lot of things. Friends, school, music, finding different ppl to associate myself with. My school has just become…bleh…and repetative as of the last 2 or 3 semesters. Everything just seems to be repeated in each class and it gets very boring…I just dont seem to care about class ne more. I only have 2 of the 5 books I need for classes and its the 5th week of class…I have money to buy them but I just dont care about getting a book that costs $100 dollars or more and only use if for a few weeks…I might not even open it because my chef does such a great job of telling us only whats important for the tests so all I have to do is write down the important stuff and never open a book…that’s bad…it just adds more not caring to my plate of carelessness. like right now…Im in the computer room at my school instead of in the class room when they started class 10 minutes ago…I dont even care. They are going over chapters that I can just read about later…thats all I see it as.
Ive been thinking about quiting school for a few semesters now…I dont know how I still have my scholarship or even how I keep passing my classes seeing as how I hardly do ne thing….but I keep on keepin on. Im not even interested in it ne more. Who knows why. Im so ready to get out of my house now…having been sleeping on the couch for 3 weeks now because my grandmother is living with us until the beginning of next month…it really sucks ass. Its sad….I wish I would have gotten to know you better than I did when u were here, Hailey. I think of you as a friend but not as close as I do of these fags on WB network. U are a very interesting person but I dont know as much aboot u as I should like too. It seems like we think a lot alike who knows..great minds and such. If I ever came to Troy we would have to have some seriously hardcore conversations. I love u guys, I grew up with u guys…I know just aboot everything about all u guys. Without u guys I would be up shit creek, for lack of a better phrase. Im not depressed or ne thing…I just need a change…something new…bright and shiney..moving out soon will be very good for me, it’ll get my mom off my back. lol…this is becoming more like a post..rather than a comment…but ill still put it on your post hailey…why? BECAUSE I WANT TOO!!! Well..no Im just to lazy to copy and paste it elsewhere. It happens. I think back to when I was a small boy..only caring about when my favorite show was going to come on or how much time I had until it got dark so I could go outside and play…man..such simple times those were. Ignorence is bliss. I love children..I actually do..I say that I hate them sometimes only because Ive had to deal with stupid stuck up kids at the Country Club who werent raised right because they were given everything on a platinum platter inlaid with gold..but I cant wait to have kids of my own….to be a father…man. I really do want to be older and have a wife and kids and white house with a white picket fence. Have all the guys over on friday and sunday nights for BBQs and pool parties. lol..I have to get a g/f then make her my wife first..then the growing up thing and the getting a house thing and all that crap…lol…time takes too long. But then again, when u sit and think about it, time doesnt take very long at all…seriously…we were just kids not long ago…I mean God, when the hell did we grow up, it happened all to fast. Good times…great oldies. Ive thought about it..and I wouldnt really mind living here at all….but I also wouldnt mind moving somewhere where no one knows me and Im like hours upon hours away from everyone that knows me. It would be an interesting few years….cause I would want to come back to P’ville…I dont know..I just like it here. I guess Im just one of those ppl that likes it here. I wasnt born here so maybe that has something to do with it, I dont know. 2 black guys just came into the room and they are looking at the back of my computer…I hope they dont do something to make it shut down. That would piss me off…I dont know what they are doing and I dont wanna ask..they look like their doing something important…they left…wow..this is becoming a long comment. I love the music that I have, I dont think I could live without music, life would just be so boring and bleh…I dont have a lot of CDs but what I have I really like and it keeps me going. Ive wondered what it would be like if I joined the military? I would want to be a soldier…fighting battles and such. But everything has become so high tech I dont know if I would enjoy it. I mean we dont really have close combat ne more and that’s what I would want to be doing. I think I would have no problem killing a man or many men. Ive thought about it and I dont see it as a problem. I wouldnt have done it now unless I was in war I wouldnt want to have to go to jail and become someones bitch and all that. “HEY BOY…U GOT A PRETTY MOUTH!!” lol..that would be my luck. Death…it doesnt seem that scarey not to me at least. I would hate to die though, and have my friends and family be sad over it. That would suck. But to kill another man, to know u took his life away, he’ll never see his family again or friends…it doesnt seem hard at all to do. But they know what they risk when they go to battle…every man does. Its a “Risky Business”. lol.. Dude I was thinking a while ago, about like antient times and shite…we would all be full grown adults by now…in that time. Cause the average life expectancey was like 35 to 45 so we would already have families and homes and such. That would just be crazy. Farming or fighting for a living… I miss Stephen and Sean…a lot…I might have cracked some morman jokes a few times but I really respect him for who he is and what he believes in. I want to know more about his beliefs, but from him…so maybe in a few years when I see him again, he can teach me some things. Knowledge is power!! I have great respect for Steev-Hen because when he sets his mind to something, he does it, and he finds/makes the time to do it. I think he will grow up to do many great things in his life…and if not…hey, move back here. lol. I have a certain great respect for all my friends, Jerry, Bill, Brandon, Cody, Marc, Dill, and more…they have all had truck loads of shit dropped on them in their lifes and they deal with it and get along fine. B and Cody, you guys have had so much shit happen to you guys and u just come out stronger ppl for it. I admire u guys, especially you B. Ginger is a bitch!! And you made the best of what u could B. All of u guys are just all around good peoples, I love u guys..even my friends that I didnt mention cause I dont have time to write out the names of all those crazy ppl…but u know who u are. lol…you know what..change of plans..i think ill make this a post instead of a comment cause its so freakin long. lol. Hailey, still think of it as a comment for you though. Because it is. “Hey bitch, maybe I just want ppl to comment on my shit too. Did you ever think of that?” lol…Im looking forward to the concert coming up, I will know by tonight if we have the van or not. If not then I will be driving and I can hold a maximum of 4 ppl not including myself…very uncomfortabley but it can be done. We shall see what happens. I think it will be another night that we will never forget…Rob it makes me very sad to know that you arent going…as well as you Xack…I shed tears for both of you. Pictures will be taken and stories will be told. A few lifes might even be changed….I have a good feeling about the concert. You know, I was thinking about giving Kaleigh another chance, I talked to her the other day when I was hanging out with her, about going back out sometime and she was a little sketchy about it. Said she didnt want ne thing serious or to feel tied down. I understand the feeling and the want for no seriousness but its just weird cause not long ago she was so gung-ho to go back out with me, a little obsessed even. We talked about it a little more and she told me that she is sort of dating but not really dating this guy from high school…U guys remember when we were going out and I told u about the guy that was hitting on her all the time and she sort of had a thing for him too for a few weeks…oh and he was black too…well this is the guy that she is sort of dating but not really. Yeah…what the hell. And then after that conversation we proceeded to make out a lot and mess around. So she isnt really into this guy that much seeing as how she let me in her pants shortly after that conversation lol..so if I go back out with her it wont be for long ne way cause not only is she moving but she doesnt want ne thing serious. Sounds interesting…I might go for it. I would hate to be going out with her and find out she is messing around with someone else…oh wait..that sort of already happened with her…LOL..Who knows. A decision must be made soon though. I really want to get back into paintballing…I love it like a fat kid loves cake. But its been so long sinse ive played it I would get my ass kicked. But Im faster now, and Im smaller so it’ll be easier to hide my large ass…lol. I mean dang..I spent so much much time and money on stuff..ok not my money, but I have some expensive stuff!! It sucks that its just sitting in my room not getting used. And Im not gonna get rid of it. Wow..such a long post. I could write a lot more, but I doubt u guys would take the time to read it. Well…I think this is good-bye…for now at least.

Live long, and prosper…
Drewly Yours.