Im not sure how long I HAVENT noticed this…but recently Ive come to notice that Ive never been happy with myself or my life. Years ago or not even that long if you wanted to find me you should look no further than the sidelines of anything going on. I was never much for physical…anything….I never really liked to sweat or workout. I fooled myself into thinking that it was ok to be lazy and well…fat. Yeah, I was stupid and wrong. Ive never been happy with myself and the thing I became over the years. I used to get depressed over the state of myself but that soon passed as I grew acustomed to the taunting and teasing. Ive never been a leader or a very good follower. The only thing I had going for me is that Im good with people and Im a nice guy. Im sure anyone who knows me would tell you that. But I cant be content with just that, I need to make more of myself. Tonight I realized that and that’s why Ive been pushing myself so hard to loose weight and tone up, not just because I was overweight but so I can make a new me and a new life. Im starting over with myself, Im going back to church and going to school, just trying to make a better person of myself. If I dont then Ill never become anything more than that fat kid people used to make fun of all through most of school…..a sad lonely unhealthy kid.

Now, on to a less depressing subject….

WOW, its been raining all freaking week. Havent jogged monday or today because of the rain and the fear of becoming more sick than I already am. School is going really well despite all the book work. Im doing a lot more hands on work than I did last sememster I love it.

We did pastry stuff today. I made pastry WOO…. it was surprisingly easy, and I enjoyed it very much.
If I continue with the cooking thing after school I think that is what I would like to be doing…making pastries..mmm mmm good.

Today after returning home from a hard day at school, I just messed around online for a while and then we (mom, dad, me and Brandon) went out for mexican food. Yeah that was the same as it always is. I had to go to the store and get a newspaper for my mom so she could read about some crazy fight that happened lastnight at a basketball game at the High School. Aparently a fight broke out between the fans of the 2 teams and it involved over 100 people…that’s a lot of people. Looks like there wont be break for the high school for a long time. LOL

Those crazy kids..
Ne way, after that I had to come home to get my room ready to be cleaned. Yeah….about that….we have a maid that comes once every 2 weeks to clean the house……yeah that’s stupid I know. I dont like it, I hate it! But my mom likes it and there is nothing me or my dad can do about it. I get really tired of having to clean for that lady to come and…clean….now does that make any sense at all?

I didnt think so….

Well after I “cleaned” my room we went over to Billy’s house (B picked up Rob on the way) we then proceeded to the local hang out spot for us…Steak n Shake. For all your coffee and milk shake needs! Yeah we were there for a while, had some coffee, did some talkin. Had an arm wrestling contest….where I dominated all but Brandon….well just his right arm…I slaughtered his left arm. I remember when I was the weakest of the group….heh heh.

Also who would you guess was there?
That’s right kids..our dear friend and co-worker….April. Whom billy and I had a good time playing air hockey with on monday. Yep that’s right!
Well she was up there hanging out with her friend Anna. I dont really have much of a problem with her but Billy on the other hand…well he has a completely different view of her. But that’s besides the point.
Yeah, I hardly ever see April out of her work uniform….and she looks pretty hot in that. But whoa…the hottness was just flowing off her like hot melted butter. And man was it good…not that “I can’t believe it’s not butter” crap, but the really good real stuff. The kind that really clogs up your arteries!
It kind of sickens me how perverted I can be but I can’t help it, its human nature. One can only fight….a futile battle that will kick my ass in the end. lol…it happens.

Ive read her web log a few times and I talk to her at work and off of work and everytime I talk to her or read what she writes she just gets more and more interesting! I know I said I wasnt going to even try to date her (like I would have a chance ne way) but man would she make a great g/f. Or even someone to just casual date. But whatever. Getting over that….co-worker and friend, that will have to do.

But yeah, we tried to get her to come to play air hockey again but she wouldnt….I guess she was scared of getting her ass kicked…cause it was gonna happen! Well….maybe just tapped…lol…
But me, bill and B went to play and who happened to show up?
Well none other than the great Jerry! Who was quite tired from a hard days workin. Well Im happy to say that I beat Brandon twice..THAT’S RIGHT B…I SCHOOLED YOU! And I also beat the rest of the guys once as well. I think I was the victor of the night. But we didnt do anything after that. Made our separate ways and here you find me now.

I have friday off for once in a long time, Im planning on sleeping and going to Bills house and spending high quality buddy buddy time. If you know what I mean.
When did the world and life become so much like a routine…you get up, go to school or work…come home..go to bed, and do the same thing over and over. If it werent for the jogging and hanging out I do with my friends I think life itself would just collapse and implode in on itself, killing everyone and everything…but we wouldnt notice because we would be to buisy not noticing life. Are’nt we a wonderful society?!

Friends..family…and loved ones…I bid you fairwell.

Until next time.