I do not have much to update on. The only thing that has changed is my dispostion, which is declining like a school bus filled with fat children in lead vests through a vacuum. Cody is the only one that could understand what this is like, it is a feeling of near helplessness. I still call 130 Beth Manor “my house”. The place I live now is a cold mound of false dreams.
I was reading over Robin’s posts chronicling the events of the PC trip and Spring Break that preceded my descent into the hells of this life, as I didn’t get to read it as it was being written because I was busy [not] training to [not] work in the Force. Honestly, if I could return to that time, knowing what I know now, I would have found another way, I would not have done this. In a way I honestly saw this as the easy way out, the most return requiring the least effort. That is how I have always operated as many of you know very well.
….but you will see me through, won’t you?
I can’t tell you how much I appreciate you writing those post, I only wish we had written down more, how much we have forgotten already. I have forgotten how much my friends mean to me. I know I haven’t called you guys much, if at all. I just don’t know what to say.
Brandon, if you are doing what will make you happy, then I am glad for you and I do hope it works. If anyone deserves to finally be happy, it’s you. I do not wish to be a “once thought to be good friend”.
Drew it is good to see you are well. If you are serious about coming this way, then I suggest coming around July. July 20th to the 22nd are the dates of Otakon, one of the biggest anime conventions in the US. We would stay in Baltimore for a few days instead of my “mound of false dreams” and you could cosplay if your gay like me.
Xack, I’ve heard rumor of a new movie in the works, if it is still to be, I would be part of it. Any part would do.
Robin, my sole bridge to the world I left behind, my eternal comrade, I hope that I have not seen the last of our adventures.
I hope I am not forgotten or worse viewed with disdain. I would be nothing without the strength of my friends. As some of you may or may not know I will be home for a week to celebrate my birthday. I don’t expect anything, I only hope that each of you can make time for me.
I’ve started playing Chrono Cross again. Besides the nostalgia of replaying a game I love so much, it has me considering the wonders of time travel and alternate dimensions.
“There’s nothing in the world as ruthless or impartial as death. All living matter ages over time and eventually dies… No matter how mighty or tiny its life force… So being alive means you’re creeping closer to death with every second… But there’s none of that here. No one and nothing ages. Nothing wastes away. This quiet, boundless, and beautiful world… An ideal world, straight out of a fairy tale, isn’t it? A place and time that belongs to no one… Res nullius… It’s because this is a future that was eliminated!!! History is composed of choices and divergences. Each choice you make creates a new world and brings forth a new future. But at the same time, you’re eliminating a different future with the choices you didn’t make. A future denied of all existence because of a change in the past… A future that was destroyed before it was even born rests here… condensed into the Dead Sea.”
How could those of you who witness the magic of Chrono Trigger not have even made an attempt at Chrono Cross. I believe Xack is the only one who bothered.
April 17th, 2007 at 11:03 AM
I gave you that game.
Dig that post. Dig that post.
April 17th, 2007 at 12:56 PM
And for that I am eternally grateful, but YOU ARE A FOOL, YOU SHOULD HAVE KEPT IT FOR YOURSELF!
April 17th, 2007 at 3:42 PM
Consider that post also dug by Stephen.
There’s always so much to say but nothing to talk about.
April 17th, 2007 at 10:00 PM
I’ll just say DIDO. be it that.
April 18th, 2007 at 11:24 AM
such….a great game…maybe ill start playing it again.
If you could….give me some insight into what the problem with your situation is. get on aim or something…I’m still MinusBlindFolde …i’m pretty sure that Im joining the air force to pay for med school and such…and if theres something i dont know….well i want to know it.
April 18th, 2007 at 12:36 PM
It’s good to hear from you! We miss you!!!
April 18th, 2007 at 5:19 PM
Dont join the military unless you like being treated like a child and having someone try to control every part of your day to day life. Its miserable. i guarantee that by the end of you first year you will say to yourself ” there was definatly another way, why was i so dumb.” at least thats what im saying.
April 18th, 2007 at 9:20 PM
well…its gunna cost me about 200 large to go to med school….you really think theres another way?
April 19th, 2007 at 11:49 AM
Be sure there isn’t another way before you commit to this.
April 19th, 2007 at 12:46 PM
We need to have a loooong chat Xack. I can’t access AIM from work and I don’t have a computer at home, so email me your phone number or something.
April 19th, 2007 at 2:46 PM
I’m proud to be an Air Force brat. On the other hand, I don’t know too much about actually being in the military. I’m sure all of this will pay off in the end.
One good thing about being in the military is all the traveling you get to do. It was because of the Air Force that I was born in Japan and was able to live in England for five years. While living in the UK, I got to visit France, Scotland, Wales, Spain, and the Canary Islands. My dad has told me that while we were living in Japan, he took me to Korea with him as well. Most likely you’ll have the same opportunities.
April 20th, 2007 at 6:17 AM
I won’t have those opportunities because I will only be in for 4 years (and I’m formulating a devious plot that can get me out in 3 if it works). I assure you it is far different being a military brat than being in the military itself, you get all of the benefits with none of the responsibility. Furthermore there is no promise that you will get to travel the world, it is a matter of luck, no matter what your told. This may very well pay off in the end, but only barely.
April 20th, 2007 at 7:02 AM
I get to travel, far too much travel. Ill constantly be on the move, and Kelsey says the same thing as you Sam, That she enjoys it, but like billy said all you get is the good side of the deal, you didnt get treated like shit every day by some guy who wouldnt have been shit in the real world so he stayed in for a power trip. Yes there are ups to being in the military. Xack they will pay for your school, but chances are you’ll never have the time to attend a single class because of all of the monotonice bullshit work they give you just to keep you buisy. They do that because of all the dumb fucks that join every year, did i mention that there are some stupid people in the military. Sam I love the places ive been so far, I love the property, hate the people!
April 20th, 2007 at 7:32 AM
you guys are both enlisted, though, correct? Maybe itll be different for an officer? my phone number is 334-531-2750, bilbo.
April 20th, 2007 at 7:41 AM
It may be different, but i dont think you’d be aloud to be friends with us then though.
April 20th, 2007 at 11:26 AM
BARELY
April 20th, 2007 at 1:02 PM
I was going to mention the officer thing Xack, if you must it will be the best way to go.
Yes…BARELY.
April 21st, 2007 at 2:52 PM
F +
April 21st, 2007 at 3:17 PM
You know what you got?
April 23rd, 2007 at 12:41 PM
Like I said, I don’t know too much about actually being IN the military. From what I’ve gathered, I think my dad is pretty glad he joined the Air Force. As for the whole travelling thing, it is a matter of luck. Guess my family was lucky.