happy birthday xack!
This is a post I wrote in July of 2010 and never finished. I intended to go back and post it eventually, but then started feeling silly about it. And then today, I realized I don’t really care if it’s silly.
This is a post that will probably seem trivial to everyone but me; apologies1 for that.
My feelings towards music have not been very positive since the end of 2008. I fear that what I’ve been calling “burnout” may be something closer to falling out of love (and not understanding why). But music and me, we still have our moments, rare glimpses of the kind of spark I so want to reignite.
I had one of those moments recently at work. I’ve loved the band Hotel Lights (fronted by Darren Jessee, former drummer for Ben Folds Five) for years now, and lately I’ve been listening a lot to their song “Amelia Bright.” Today I stumbled across the knowledge that this song was originally a Ben Folds Five song (slated for release on an album that never came to be, I think?). Oh reader, you cannot imagine how my fingers trembled as I typed into Google that kind of queries that I thought might turn up a bootlegged recording of this. It didn’t take long to find one. I think my jaw was dropped the entire time I listened–it was like one of my favorite bands had time traveled to the future, learned this song, and gone back to cover it. More melodramatically, it felt like receiving a lost letter from someone who’s since died. I know this sounds absurd. But it felt like a very personal experience.
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I just had a very similar experience today that reminded me of this post. I had a discussion on Facebook recently with someone who told me she cried like a baby when her favorite band broke up. I got to thinking about Harvey Danger, one of my favorites, who broke up back in 2009. When I visited their website, imagine my surprise to find they’d uploaded a “final” album that was only available on their brief farewell tour and a “posthumously” released single. I love that this band, unlike many, fully recognized what a loss their breakup was to their fans. I also don’t know what to do with the files–greedily gobble them all up in on sitting? Try to make them last?
Also, it’s fun to note that since I wrote the original post, Ben Folds released a collection of Ben Folds Five rarities that included “Amelia Bright.” I haven’t listened to any of that yet, though.
1I’m told I apologize too much; apologies for that.